Hari ke-2 cubaan berblogging seperti dulu

Panjangnya tajuk. Okay, I tulis kat Twitter yang I akan cuba blog setiap hari. Kah kah kah. Let's see how long this will last. So here I am on my 2nd day of blogging like I used to. 

Today's topic will be...

Dammit, still got no idea what to write about. Tiba rasa macam, oh boringnya kehidupan I seharian sebab takda content nak tulis. Then again, there is actually so much to write about rather than myself right? So what, do I Google about what to write? Pick up some interesting findings on the internet and share?

Tapi sebab Twitter dah ada bebenang, benda ni semua boleh tulis situ. All in bite size. So here I am thinking out loud while typing out my thoughts, what should I blog about that would differentiate it from blogging and all other social media posts? 

WHAT DID I BLOG ABOUT LAST TIME??!!!!!

Okay jap, lemme recall... I think some were about me and my troubles with finishing my degree. Then, I talked about some of my love life (which I decide to no longer share cause I'm keeping that one personal). Not everything should be shared kannn. At least that's what I learnt last time. *sniff*

Then I had a few controversial "clout-ish" posts about current happenings. Then ohhh I had my fashion blog, Count The Thread sharing my OOTDS and street styles I shot (that was fun). My other art and photo blog, which I didn't update as frequent. Lmaoo I even had a motherhood blog also. I had multiple blogs. Like how on earth??!! Yang ni satu pun tak tau apa nak tulis. 

HOLD UP! As I was writing this post, someone commented Sam & Din on my Twitter, and I was like hahahahahahha. Yeah I used to talk about my silly dreams. 

Chaiyok for sam n din

— Iήsͥⱥnͣeͫ 🇲🇾.💬.🔁.💙.🔀.📊 (@insaneoredi) January 25, 2023

Tak taulah kalau ada orang lain yang ingat, but it was about my dream about Sam & Dean (Supernatural), I mimpi jumpa dekat Baskin & Robbins RR mana tah. Sam & Dean duk beratur kat belakang, sekali dia cakap favourite dia Pralines n Cream jugak. Wahahaha. Hati berbunga dalam mimpi tu sampai terjaga

Mimpi pun jadi content kan. But I think that's what was fun about blogging on Budu & Belacan. Random silly posts like that. But this blog would probably be a bit different, since it's a different time now and I'm much older. 

Will try my best to keep my content interesting. Tapi tu lah, kadang syok sendiri pun ada. Would be nice that others would join in and blog as well. If you do, drop your links in the comment. Nanti I add the links to my sidebar. 

Alangkah best kalau dapat bawa kembali zaman gemilang berblogging kan? Dia punya rasa teruja tu lain macam kalau ada post baru, nak lagi dari blogger kegemaran. 

I am also thinking that, maybe I can have this blog to an extension of some of my tweets. So like, if you wanna read more, drop by my blog post. Cause even with Twitter threads, some things can be somewhat limited. Banyak kena cut down to keep with the character limit. 

Tapi masa Twitter dulu, siap kena ada external link kalau nak tweet panjang haha. So this is why blogging was still relevant. And time tu takda thread. So blogging was the go to place to membebel and stuff. Nak share gambar segala, IG pun masih cam not as blown up as it is these days. 

Haih, makin menulis ni, makin membara rindu nak blog dan kembalikan feeling tu. I'd say blogging days were some of my best Internet days. Not to mention made so many real life friends there too. 

Okaylah, ending this here. Adios. 

Much love, 

Hello 2023

Yoooooo. It's been like 2 years since I last blogged. So, am just gonna go right at it. But so clueless of what to write. Still amazed and puzzled how I could write multiple posts in a single day back then. And now I just have no idea. Like hmm. And I keep on writing about blogging each time I write a new post.  I also keep on blaming Twitter for ruining the blog experience. 

Rindu zaman Budu & Belacan: Busuk Tapi Sedap days. Rindu those chatboxes on the side, and who visited stats etc.. Then there was Nuffnang with the advertorials and what not. Of course the events were wonderful. Got to meet fellow bloggers. Fun days fun times. 

Fast forward to today, I am mostly at home. Quit my day job, to be a full-time stay at home mom, work at home mom. 100% for a living. It has it's ups and downs. Buuuuttt I don't wanna get into that now. Maybe will keep it for another blog post, that is if I ever do continue writing. 

So this is Secret Mail Service. My surprise greeting card business I founded with my husband in 2017. Then went hiatus due to production issues, then now we're back! Just got a new printer so I can print the custom messages at the back. 

If interested you can check out our Instagram https://www.instagram.com/secretmailservice/ or our Twitter https://twitter.com/secretmailsrvc

Then, lately I've been TikToking, and tried gaining 1k followers to start doing LIVE. So reached 1k, but danngggg so awkward. 

@sueannajoe A slightly long video of me. Hoping I can gain more followers on TikTok so I can do LIVE art sessions! #fyp #artist #art #artwork #procreate #digitalart #traditionalart #painting #abstractpainting #illustration #doodle #artset4 #tiktokmalaysia #tiktokartist #tiktokart ♬ original sound - sueannajoe

Like how on earth people can be so natural on live. I macam eh nak cakap apa ni. I nak record video atas ni pun banyak gila take. But every once in a while I do go on randomly. But only like 10 or 9 is my most viewers at one time. Hahaha. Sendu. My live is mostly art stuff though.. 

And some of the LIVE are damn weird. And ramainya tak tidur like up till 3AM doing live. Siap full on make-up. But yeah most of them do get these live gifts which is converted into real money. So I guess that't their way of gaining income. To be honest, if TikTok was around during my younger days, I'd probably be doing that too. 

Tapi ada yang siap buat live tidur la, then nenek tua mandi lumpur la, siap polis buat siasatan. ASMR memang ramai buat, and ramai gila viewers. But back to that nenek tua mandi and tidur, it's like a new age begging. I faham yang live buat art content, bagi gift and that person will draw you, but some are just super desperate. Siap macam okay, kalau you bagi this certain amount, I will dance, slap my face, conteng muka. And kadang siap couple laki bini buat. Scary how it is. Black Mirror is becoming a reality. Anything for clout, anything for money. Malu segala sudah dipadam. 

Anyway, I'll end this post here. Trying to warm up. Who knows I might make blogging a regular thing again. Tapi memang kering takda idea apa nak tulis. 

Alrite, thank you to those who dropped by and read. Thank you for those who have followed me during my Budu & Belacan days or even way back. Wouldn't be here without you guys.

Much Love, 

Monologue: The feeling of giving up

Photo by Akshar Dave on Pexels

Is giving up an option? Yes and no. Some things I've given up, was the best choice I've made, but some turned out to be regrets. Of course there is no turning back, but there is always that question of "what if". This is life, the choices we make, the path we choose to take. It's always an adventure, scary a lot of times. 

But this is why, we need guidance in life. Dan kita sebenarnya dah ada "guidance" ni. Apa sepatutnya yang dituju dalam hidup ni. Tapi banyak masalah timbul sebab kita mengejar yang duniawi sampai matlamat yang kekal yang sepatutnya kita kecapi kita ambil ringan. 

I am always struggling with this, at the end of each day, I reflect on myself, and can't help but feel disappointed for not making the most out of it. And always set a new goal the next day, hoping to be a better me, and sometimes I do,  a lot of times I fail at it. And the thought of just giving up keeps on lingering in my head, which makes me feel all useless. And I fall back to zero. Get back up build the pieces again, only to bring it down another day. 

It's a tiring and an exhausting routine. 

But no, although I feel like giving up, I know I won't. I will always find a way to get back up, even it means I continue to fall, get hurt, get back up, only to fall again. 

There are changes I need to make. I do believe or at least like to believe that I do improve a bit each time. At least I am trying, and will try harder, and maybe less some days, but I will try no matter how hard I fall, I will go on. 

/end

Kembalikan semangat yang pudar

"Ke laut, ke darat, janganlah keparat"
Foto di ambil di Port Dickson bertahun dahulu.

Agak-agaknya boleh ke dapatkan semangat berblogging macam dulu? Kalau ada geng rasa semangat sikit. Tapi tulah, kebanyakkan geng lama pun, dah tak aktif, dah ada komitmen hidup yang lain, bekeluarga, berkerjaya. Jadi takda masa nak habiskan menulis blog. IG ngan Twitter, Facebook jauh lebih mudah. Takda nak pikir nak karang panjang-panjang ye dok.

Tapi sayanglah kalau terkubur macam tu je. Duk gak jenguk mana yang masih menulis blog, tapi dah tak ada "vibe" macam dulu. Kebanyakan yang ada pun, macam tak berkomen. Blog Anna ni pun tak berapa nak ada komen. Letak kat Twitter, diorang baca, tapi komen kat Twitter. Hahaha. Tapi takda nak bengang ke apa, sebab Anna sendiri pun macam agak rasa berat bila nak komen. Dia jadi semacam leceh berbanding dengan berbalas ciapan. 

Apa yang best pasal blogging?

Kalau blog, kita leh edit. Silap tulis mudah je nak edit. Kalau Twitter, mana dapaaaat.  Twitter ni nak tulis panjang kena buat bebenang, kadang tak semua orang rajin nak "expand" bebenang untuk baca. Komen dalam blog kita boleh kawal. Macam Anna sendiri, benarkan komen anonymous, tapi masih perlu approve sebelum disiarkan. 

Lepas tu, nak susun gambar, bolehla buat bagi nampak cantik dan sesuai dengan karangan kita. Tapi, agak renyah sikit. Kadang salah tarik ke terus tak cantik layout. Lepas tu, macam dulu banyak advertorial untuk blog, ataupun banner iklan, macam Nuffnang. Tapi Nuffnang pun macam dah krik krik. 

Anna dulu berkesempatan jadi talent di bawah naungan Nuffnang. Best gila masa tu, dapatlah duit sikit dari iklan dalam banner, tapi banyak dapat advertorial. Lepas tu, dapat gi event sana sini. Makan sedap sedap. paling best dapat merasa gi Legoland. Semua free. 

Tak lama lepas tu, Instagram dah mula memonopoli platform media sosial. Maka mula berkuranglah aktiviti blogger, dan banyak tertumpu pada "influencers" dan "IG pemes". Anna sempat gak la merasa zaman ni sikit. Lepas tu, diduga dengan masalah hidup, terus Anna delete segala media sosial termasuklah blog Anna semua. 

Adalah kot dekat 3 tahun menghilang diri. Lepas tu nak mula balik memang payah. Sampai sekrang IG sendu gila. Algorithm dia pulak macam ntah apa. Twitter je boleh tahan sikit. Maka saya pun terus lah ketagih dengan Twitter. 

Tiba macam Anna tulis beberapa hari lepas, terbaca orang ciap pasal zaman blogging. Kebetulan masa tu tengah rasa agak stress dan bosan. Pastu baca komen throwback, rindu nak customize blog la, apa la semua, terus semangat nak menulis balik. Dah ada blog ni tapi kurang aktif. Jadi harapnya, semangat menulis blog ni diteruskan. 

Dan di sini, saya nak mengajak korang pun turut serta supaya kita semangat sama-sama. Ayuhhhh kita meriahkan kembali dunia blogging!

Ok sehingga entri seterusnya, baaaaiiii.  ~ Sue Anna Joe

Twitter & Instagram menghancurkan era blogging?

Ternampak dua tweet ni dari @izzatisuza dan @seketultapir terus rasa semangat nak tulis blog balik. Tapi tiap kali ada cubaan, mesti gagal. Tulislah satu dua post, lepas tu berbulan baru update. Takda idea nak membebel apa. Camna lah dulu mampu update kerap, siap sehari boleh buat dua tiga post. Gila. 

Rasanya sebabkan Twitter dengan Instagram ni kita jadi malas nak menulis blog. Yelah, nak tulis blog ni, dahla kena karang panjang baru lah sedap sikit. Nak letak gambar pun, nak kena adjust placement lah apa. Kalau IG ke Twitter ke jauh lagi senang. Lepas tu interaction pun lebih mudah, nak like, komen, atau share balik. In other words blogging isn't convenient?

Anyway, I think I want to try and blog again every day. Whether someone reads it or not, shouldn't be my concern. Of courselah better kalau ada yang baca kan. But if I did think that way, I would be easily demotivated to write again. Also, as for the content? Honestly I have no idea. Kalau boleh, nak lah pengisian yang bagus kan. Buuuutttt to get me started I guess I should just write whatever. So I can get the feel and momentum. 

And, I find it hard to write either in just Malay or English. When I try, I terus jadi stuck nak tulis sebab pening nak guna ayat atau perkataan seterusnya. But not trying to publish a book, so will keep it informal and all jumbled up. 

Also hoping that by blogging often, I would spend less time on Twitter scrolling the timeline. I think I am a bit wayyyy too addicted to Twitter. But it's really a great place, have been getting art commission there quite a bit. And the art community there has been so supportive so not surprised why I am very attached to it. 

The ability to do threads now on Twitter is definitely makes blogging seem pointless. And as mentioned earlier, the ability to easily comment, like, share, add photos, the convenience of it all makes you wonder, why does one need to blog? So what is a good reason to start blogging again?

Well, I guess I will have to keep on writing to find out. Okay bye. Thanks to those who dropped by to read. Comments are appreciated. 

Bye!

psst: Tajuk dalam BM, last last in English. Aihhh.

{Sue Anna Joe}

Hitam Itu Menawan

Sooooo, macam biasa scroll timeline Twidda I terbaca kes mak Haneesya Hanee the Malaysian model saman some fellas sebab said her kulit was gelap like bubble tea and Hajarul Aswad. So okay, Hajarul Aswad tu serious melampaulah weiiii. Then, nampak pulak tweet Dr. Amalina pasal whitening skincare. Cerita pasal kulit hitam putih ni memang takkan habis. In fact I did blog about it in Budu dan Belacan. About my own issues about wanting fair skin. 

Having fair skin memang nampak lawa putih gebu, nampak macam bersih bersih gitu, sinar lagi terpancar. Nak pakai apa warna baju pun takda masalah. Come on, kalau ada baby baru lahir, kulit putih cerah, kita mesti akan komen, putihnya baby. Khenn. Kalau baby tu dark skin, kita akan diam, takda kata eh hitamnya babyyyy, cause we automatically associate hitam tu macam negative remark. Siap ada mitos masa pregnant jangan minum kopi nanti anak hitam, minum soya bagi anak putihlah ahaha gila. 

Then kalau zaman sekolah, perempuan yang kulit putih yang jadi hot stuff, popular. Maka yang kulit tanned exotic ni pun rasa lah down. Dah berapa banyak komen I baca, masing-masing yang berkulit tanned exotic ni cerita pengalaman selalu kena ejek kulit hitam. Pastu kalau lelaki yang komen lagilah, mulut macam puaka. Dia punya zass tu tak ingat. Kejam gila kalau lelaki mengata. Berbisa. 

My kulit isn't exactly very dark, but far from putih lah. But I wanted fair skin, bukan fairer but fair. I have used numerous whitening skincare. Fair and Lovely (masa sekolah rendah dah guna), then branded skincares like Estee Lauder, Biotherm, Shisheido, then yang less branded like L'Oréal, then yang local, macam Ibu Putih dan sebagainya. But I tak beranilah try yang jenis kulit peeling tu sebab scary wehhhh. Have also minum AuraWhite (which menjadi, but taklah putih gebu, it did help lighten my skin). Stopped sebab tak mampu nak maintain and of course risau nanti rosak organ dalaman in the long run.

Tapi sekarang banyak gila produk whitening. Dari sapu kat kulit, ke injection, ke makan. Baru-baru ni nampak ada bleaching product untuk kulit, sapu je nanti terus putih, eeee scary weh. Kau ingat kulit kita ni baju uniform sekolah ke nak clorox kasi putih. But desperate people do stupid things. 

Sekarang I dah tak kisah sangatlah nak putihkan kulit. Nak cerahkan supaya tak kelihatan kusam, tu ye. Even when I edit my photos I do brighten it up just so tak nampak kusam. Kita ni dah kena brainwash sejak kecik asal kulit putih je lawa. Also, kita tengok sahaja our royalty, am pretty sure most of 'em ladies have fair skin kan? So macam manalah kita tak associate kulit putih ni special?

It comes back down to us, as individuals to change our own mindset. Especially siapa yang kulit gelap, we shouldn't be ashamed to say it out loud, ye aku kulit gelap, hitam, so what? For those who have kids with darker skin tone, especially yang perempuan, kita as parents kena tanam dalam diorang, educate them, that you should love your skin tone no matter what. Bagitau tak perlu sibuk nak putihkan kulit tu. Yang penting be healthy and have healthy skin. 

Jadilah ibarat Boba Milk Tea. Walaupun warna Bobanya hitam, tetapi ia enak sekali dan menjadi kegemaran ramai.

{Sue Anna Joe}

Am I too old for this?

Malas nak letak watermark. Gambar masa gi South Korea.

So I was saying on my Instagram story about how I felt like blogging but always ending up not knowing what to blog about. So here I am trying to give it a go again. 

Sooooo hi korang. Gosh this is awkward. My glorious blogging and social media days are over. Should prolly change my blog's name to Blog Sendu. Haha. Seriously though that is how I feel after coming back from quiting the Internet cold turkey. I had about 16k followers on my IG, 10k on Twitter. Came back, created new accounts and the response seriously underwhelming. IG 2.4k ish followers, Twitter tak sampai 1k, and my Facebook page, been losing "fans" each time I post, so like WTH am I doing wrong? Sorry but I am a stats whore. Trying not to be anymore. 

Kadang tu fed up gak, rasa macam why did I ever come back, or why did I even leave ya know? I did leave to kind of restart my life again after going through some turbulence in my life. And hoping for a fresh new me fresh new start, fresh new outlook. But noooo, when I got back, the social media scene was cray cray. Mutual followers back then have like berpuluh, beratus ribu and a even a million followers now. And like mushroom influencers here and there with a huge following. Like whaaaaaa. 

Sue Anna Joe who? Halaa halaa teringat that one fella who made a spoof MySpace page called Sue Anna Who.. haha macam apa je, but hey I deserved it. I was indeed a "righteous b*tch".. still waiting for that book to be published girl. I doubt any one has any idea what I am membebeling about, but if you do, then you knowlah what I mean. Those were the days kan? 

But I am old la. Dah patut move on benda alah gini. Duk rumah, jadi mak mak, jaga anak, ya know. Leave behind dunia Internet ni. But nooooo how can I not join all the makcik bawangs and be left out right? 

So here I am struggling to find a balance, to try and move on from my days back then, but still be somewhat relevant. But it is tough, dah rasa jauh tenggelam, kecil, kerdil, terkambus, dah tak terkejar. A lot of times it does get me down, which is stupid I know. Semua dunia. But yeah, a lot of my past after school was all social media and made who I was known for. So it's seriously tough to let go. 

But what I can do is... first don't be tough on myself. Don't push myself to make things to look all perfect and nice. No need to prove myself to anyone. Stop comparing myself to others, especially their achievements. Be grateful for the tiniest things in life. And of course remember ini dunia semua sementara. Gotta make the most of it for the life after yaw. Ye dok? Kang dah habis masa, menyesal pun tak guna ye dok. Even satu saat pun kita rasa rugi aku tak buat bekalan yang secukupnya. But how cukup is cukup? 

You know we spend so much time on social media, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, YouTube and other things Netflix e.t.c... padehal masa tu kita boleh guna untuk baca Qur'an, faham, hafal apa patut, zikir dan sebagainya.. yet we spend like perhaps 90% on worldly things and only 10% on ibadah. Even that 10% buat sebab wajib, and a lot of times masa beribadah tu kita duk teringat the 90% tu. Aduhhh. 

It's a struggle. It's a challenge we must face before it's too late. And by the way, kita perempuan yang paliiiing banyak temptation huwaaaa. Okaylah bai. Assalamualaikum. 

 {Sue Anna Joe}

Kawan bila dah berkahwin dan masalah rumahtangga.

Dalam podcast Episode 7 United Moms Club (Podcast autoplay dekat sidebar sebelah kiri ni, boleh tekan pause. Sorry kalau terkejut).. okay podcast yang dimuatnaik minggu lepas bercerita tentang hubungan dengan kawan-kawan bila dah kahwin, dah ada anak. Memang dah lain.. kita takda nak lepak macam dulu. Kalau dulu time belajar, boleh lepak berjam-jam kat cafe borak pasal apa tah. Tak duk kat cafe, lepak dalam kereta pun jadi. Hahaha, those were the days. Entah apa-apa yang dibuat. Pergi sana sini, pergi mall, even bercuti pun sama-sama. Kepala serabut pun masa tu, kot ada assignment ke, exam ke, tu je lah, other than that memang enjoy habis-habisan dengan kawan.

Bila dah kahwin, segalanya berubah, ada anak lagiiiiilah. In touch dengan kawan pun, guna whatsapp, komen dekat facebook ke, ig ke. Kalau berjumpa pun, ada birthday party, kenduri, akikah dan sebagainya. Itupun, tak dapat nak lepak borak lama sebab melayan anak. 

Kadang kawan yang rapat gila pun dah jadi awkward, borak tak semacam dulu. Mainly kerana, keluarga kita, suami dan anak-anak yang dah ganti tempat kawan menjadi peneman hidup. Dan yang penting, kita tokleh lah nak share lebih-lebih, ada aib dan rahsia rumahtangga dan keluarga yang harus dirahsiakan. Tidak semua yang boleh dikongsi. 

Tapi kadang tu, ada masalah dan isu yang timbul dalam keluarga. Antara suami dan isteri. Macam mana nak selesaikan? 

1. Seeloknya, bawa berbincang sesama pasangan. Jangan asal ada problem je up dekat media sosial ke, group whatsapp ke, kawan ke. Selesaikan secara internal.  

2. Kalau masih berterusan, dengan ahli keluarga, parents kita, mertua kita, adik-beradik kita. Saudara-mara? Itu.. harus dipertimbangkan, kerana risau aib keluarga kita akan tersebar secara sengaja atau tidak.  

3. Kawan rapat yang dipercayai, kalau option pertama dan kedua tu tak jalan-jalan jugak. Tapi tak perlu bercerita lebih. Ingat, kita sebagai isteri wajib menjaga aib.  

4. Kawan pun tak jadi.. ha ni bahaya... tapi..... ada masanya boleh membantu. Forum-forum, atau group yang ada secara online. Tapi banyak mudarat la bila tengok komen-komen yang dilemparkan bila ada yang meminta pendapat secara online. Makin pening jadinya. 

Tapi takat benda seperti, eh kat mana ye tempat percutian best nak pergi? Lepas bersalin, korang berpantang macam mana ye? Botol susu apa ye nak bagi kat anak, sebab dia taknak hisap susu botol, macam manalah bila dah mula kerja nanti. Hahaha. Gitu okaylah.  

Paling tak boleh blah, page KRT dekat Facebook tu. Haduiiii, yang ceritanya boleh tahan, yang komen waduh waduhhhh. IIUM Confessions okay-okaylah, itupun ada yang tersasar juga. Jadi kalau boleh platform media sosial ni seeloknya dielakkan dari menjadi platform luahan perasaan dan masalah okay?

5. Rujuk kepada pakar, tapi yang ni kadang susah sikit, nak jumpa pakar, ambil masa, mungkin wang, atau tak tau mana nak rujuk kan. Pakar tu termasuk mereka yang berilmu dalam hal rumahtangga. 

6. Dan yang ni of course, sentiasa berdoa dan meminta petunjuk dariNya. 

Kadang takut tengok trend, asal ada masalah je update dekat Facebook ka, Twitter ke, lepas tu jadi viral. Share screenshot perbualan whatsapp mengantoikan sesiapa yang terlibat. Rasanya tak membantu pun kalau viralkan benda gitu. Makin merumitkan keadaan adalah. Tapi itulah realiti dunia zaman sekarang kan. Jadi kenalah menjadi netizen yang bijaksana supaya tak terjebak sekali. Orait, baaaai. 

{Sue Anna Joe}

Solat 5 Waktu

الأحد

03 MUHARRAM 1439H

Assalamualaikum.

Tiba-tiba rasa terpanggil untuk menulis entri ini. Tengah syok tidur, di pagi yang hening, Anna dikejutkan dari tidur. Bukannya sebab alarm clock, tapi sebab binatang kecil yang menganggu. Seekor binatang yang pernah memasuki otak Raja Namrud, dan menjadi punca kematiannya iaitu sang nyamuk. Tau kan betapa annoying bunyi nyamuk yang lalu dekat telinga. Kecik-kecik cili api, memang rasa nak maki. Hahaha. Tapi terima kasih wahai nyamuk, kerana sudi menjadi jam loceng semula jadi pagi ni.

Solat 5 waktu. Tiang agama. Yang ni semua tahu. Semua juga tahu, kalau tak solat, segala amalan kita dianggap, zero, invalid, disqualified, kerana solat itulah amalan pertama yang akan dihisab kelak. Rugi, rugi, rugi! Okay, bayangkanlah kan, bagi kaki game. Setelah sekian lama berhempas pulas, berjam-jam korang duk main game tu, tiba-tiba blackout atau bateri habis, tak sempat nak record high score tu. Ataupun, penat tulis assignment, sekali tak save. Mak aih, dia punya bengang, aduhhhhhhh. Ha, jenis yang kaki shopping, jumpa kasut ni, lawa gila, pergi cuba, memang rasa perfect, cuma terlebih satu saiz saja. Sekali tanya dekat akak salesgirl tu, dah habis stok dah. Kah kah kah. Sadis kan. Nak makan, tengok menu, jumpa mana yang nak makan, time order, waiter bagitau, dah habis dah... padehal orang kat sebelah baru je order, ghopenya customer sebelah tu dapat yang terakhir. Kah kah kah.

Jadi macam mana tu, di Padang Mahsyar kelak? Kita dah buat bermacam-macam benda yang baik, menolong orang, bersedekah, berbakti kepada parents, tak tipu orang, berpuasa, menutup aurat, dan sebagainya.. sekali semua yang baik kita buat dulu dilupuskan begitu sahaja sebab kita tak jaga solat. Boleh kah, kah, kah lagi ke ini macam? Boleh ke kita post dekat Twitter ka, Facebook ka yang kita rasa sedih dan bengang macam masa di dunia bila tak dapat benda kita nak? Sudah tentulah, tidak boleh. Game over bro. Eh bro je ke? Sis pon tak terkecuali, walaupun terkecuali setiap bulan ketika bulan mengunjung tiba.

Nikmat apabila berjaya menunaikan solat tu sangat besar kan? Dia punya kepuasan tu, Allah saja yang tahu. Akan sedikit terdetik, kalaulah aku mati lepas ni.. sekurang-kurangnya dah solat. Kan? Kalau time malam nak tidur, dah solat Isyak, Ya Allah dia punya rasa puas hati dan lega dan nak tidur tu best yang teramat. Tenang je. Samalah, bila dah solat Subuh. Pergh, padehal rasa berat dan mengantuk mata tu, tapi dah selesai tu, rasa semangat dan yakin untuk menjalankan urusan dunia pada hari tersebut. Bila mana dapat sempurnakan solat 5 waktu tu, aduhai... rasa seperti satu achievement yang besar! Jiwa kita telah diberi santapan yang indah sekali.

Tapi, untuk mencukupkan solat 5 waktu tu, memang mencabar. Mengantuklah, sibuk dengan kerjalah, leka berhiburlah. Banyak sebab manusia tak menunaikan solat. Ada perempuan yang malas nak tanggalkan mekap dan pakai balik. Leceh tau. Nak tonyoh buang mekap tu, lepas tu nak pakai balik, dengan berebut depan cermin, nak adjust balik tudung bagi mendapatkan lilitan dan lipatan yang sempurna. Wah kalah semangat kita nak menyempurnakan tertib solat tu tau. Haa, apa lagi, ni yang biasa, duk tengok wayang, terlepas waktu solat, sebab masa tu dalam panggung, sayang nanti kita termiss part yang best, dahla tiket mahal, seating dah terbaik. Sambil mengunyah popcorn. Pergi, rugi weh kalau tak tengok sampai habis. Ish ish ish apa nak jadi dengan kita ni?

Kita dah tau semua ni, but why, whyla bro, whyla sis, you no jaga solat? Padehal berapa minit je pun. Dahla dosa kita semakin hari, semakin berbukit. Haa, you tak buat dosa ke? Wah hebat. Dekat Facebook jah, dah berapa banyak dosa dah dikumpul. Komen itu ini, kritik itu ini, share itu ini,  lompat sekali dalam keretapi viral. Tak perasan, sebab orang lain pun buat. Niat kita nak kongsi je, jadikan pedoman dan contoh yang tidak patut diikuti. Bila orang kata, heiii tak baik mengaibkan orang, kita jawab, tak kan nak dibiarkan orang macam ni, biar orang lain takut untuk buat juga. Yelah tu, takdanya orang nak jadikan benda tu teladan. Moral of the story, moral of the story ye jah. Jah oh jahhh, keep it to yourself. Istighfar, berdoa, agar kita terpelihara dan dijauhkan dari perkara sebegitu. No need to spread spread or comment comment. Dosa dihujung jari namanya.

Susahkan nak jaga solat? Nak khusyuk tu lagilaaahhh. Otak duk melayang, pikir nak makan apa, nak masak apa, nak itu, nak ini, masalah dekat tempat kerja, masalah percintaan, nak beli apa jap lagi dan sebagainya. Kalau boleh nak solat cepat-cepat. Walhal paling lama pun, berapa minit je. Tapi kita buat benda lain, amboihh kemain lama, sampai tak perasan pun masa dah berlalu. Apa la nak jadi dengan kita ni? Dunia sekarang memang makin mencabar. Banyak sangat distraction. Berjam kot boleh layan newsfeed, baca artikel itu ini, sekali duk scroll jumpa pulak video yang kelakar. Aduh dah jumpa video, ada lagi video kat bawah tu yang lagi kelakar. It's a neverending story... until the day you dead bro, and sis. Are you ready to die? 

Jadi kesimpulannya, ayuhlah kita pakat berusaha untuk menjaga solat kita. Semoga kita semua berjaya di dunia dan terutamanya di akhirat. Jangan sia-siakan yang ada. Jangan kejar sesuatu yang merugikan diri kita di akhirat kelak. Ingat, dunia ini sementara. Mati pun tak tau bila. Kumpulkan pahala, kurangkan dosa. Syurga atau neraka, itu pilihan kita.

Sekian. Wassalam.

{Sue Anna Joe}